Your going to have to have surgery...

So a few weeks ago I got some wonderful news!!! We are going to send you to Lubbock to a Fertility Specialist!!! Praise God.. answers to my prayers!!! I just knew that this was going to make everything fall into place and we would be preggers in no time!!! Kathleen and I got up and left about 9am, it was raining but not too bad... we got to Lubbock and we needed a boat... the roads were FLOODED!!! We got to the end of our map quest directions and we were at a bank... weird... so we called and they said that there offices were on the 3rd floor of the bank... even weirder!!! so we had 2 hours to kill... lunch? sure.... so we went driving looking for somewhere to eat... were not being picky just somewhere to sit and have a meal brought to us... Logan's road house... olive garden... just something good!!! well in our quest for food Kathleen points out that there is a suspicious slushy substance on our car window... SNOW?!?!? cmon you have got to be kidding me... so long story short we get lost.... and try heading back to the doctors office and out of the corner of my eye I spot TACO BUENO!!! so we pulled in and ordered our food... great food, watched it snow more and more and stick to the grass and form a slush on the road... and we headed back to the bank/Dr's office... I go in and they check me all in.... and then they call me back to the window and say I'm sorry Mrs. Owens your insurance isn't going to cover very much of your treatments and you will have to end up paying a lot out of your pocket!!! then our conversation goes like this...

me: ohh really? did you know this on Friday?
lady: yes
me: then why didn't you call me so I wouldn't have had to drive 3 hours in the rain/snow to get here?!?!?!?!?
lady: oh I'm sorry Mrs. Owens....

so I decide to stay for my appointment and see what this "all knowing" fertility Dr has to offer me... needless to say the 1 and 1/2 hour wait in the EMPTY waiting room started to tick me off... then I got called back to what I now think was there lunch room... (dining room table... 4 chairs... magazines..) just to wait 35 more minutes... then in comes the doctor.... I was irritated to say the least but still I was very excited to see her.... in the 35 minute interview that she had with me the first sentence out of her mouth was... "I understand you don't have any money to pay me"

WTF?!?!?!

and here in a few words as possible was my fertility Dr experience...

ME: I know my insurance isn't great but I can pay what ever you charge...

DR: oh really ... (yawn)

ME: yes, can we discuss my situation...

DR: ok well you have pcos... (yawn) we will have to do this and this and this (yawn)... that will be $800 per monthly treatment... and it usually takes 4 months of treatment for you to conceive(yawn) !!

ME: ok well i am willing to do anything...

DR: (yawn) oh really?

ME: yes

DR: oh I see here you have $50,000 of surgical insurance... ok well we will need to go ahead and set you for surgery to RULL OUT endemetroisis...

ME: what? I have never even been told about that... I don't think I have that... is there a test we can to to check?...

DR: nope we just need to get you set for surgery... oh and your cost will be $1200.00... hold on my iPhone is ringing.... oh its my daughter and she is on spring break and she is going to this indoor water park and she is so excited...

ME: I think I just paid you $50 to talk to your daughter during my appointment...

Needless to say I am hurt and pissed off and very sadden at what happened... but on the other hand I have a new drive... this "Dr" flat out told me that I will never have a baby with out her help... and out to prove her wrong!!!

With the help of my regular Dr and vitamins and natural remedies I am going to have a beautifull baby... and if that doesn't happen we will adopt... I know God has a plan for me and right now I am just going to sit back and focus on getting healthy and what ever happens I know that He is the reason for it all...